2.The way you kiss me, the way you smile, the way you hold me. I have to turn away because if not, i’ll just fall in love with you..right then and there. Can’t have that happening. It’s like I have to keep my eye in one direction, or i’ll trip..and i’ll fall.
3. I always, well, “bite my tongue” because I know I’ll slip up and actually say some of the stuff I’m thinking to youu..and I really feel like it’s a little too early for me to even be able to IMAGINE the way you DO make me feel. It’s scareeewwweee.
4.It’s one thing when you kiss me and I feel like electric is being pulsed through my body, but then you really kiss me and I have to pull away. You make me feel like i’m glowing.
5. Obviously today when I messed up and said “you’re dating a photographer.” PAH. that says something about how i feel toward you. I apologize, by the way.
It just really sucks to look around and only be able to point out a handful, if not less, of people who I can call my friends. In public, yeah, there are plenty of “friends” who hug on me, make hallow promises, pretend like we have such a great bond, then leave the show and nothing comes of it. I miss having a group of people, or at least a small amount of people, who I can always rely on for a good day. I really don’t have that at this point and I hate it. I miss it.
So any cool people wanna holler? I need some genuine as shit people., asap.
1.meet Christopher Ian Brown 2.make a memorable piece of art. 3.live in my own loft. 4.move away from this town, experience all new things, then come home. 5.own a MG Midgit 6.have enough money to make me happy!
1.GZ lock in with adrian and shelby. 2.Away We Go at the westside theatre with Andrew, Derrick, Lauren, and Shelley. 3.Singing in the back of Lauren’s car anytime she would drive everybody around. 4.Church Camp 5.Strolling home with Ta Lee, holding hands like good bestfriends and talking about our future. 6.this is so silly because it’s so new but, trampoline night with Wookiss Fusspotski. 7.New Years Eve with Shelby. Bagel Bites and ChocoSilk.
1.i hate coughing 2.i need to finish getting ready because my hair looks like something 80s metal and spencer is almost home. 3.i probably shouldn’t want to spend all the time with this one boy.. 4.summer is halfway over, and i haven’t really achieved anything yet.
1.i meant it when i said you make me feel the way he did. it’s so crazy to me because you’re almost 180 opposite to what i normally go for in a guy. i really, really like it though. I really, really like you. 2.i think you’re the nastiest piece of shit. ew. I can’t believe i let myself fall for you. WHAT WAS I THINKING? Yeah, i tell you everything to your face every single time i get the chance. I don’t think you understand my meaning of hate. I’ve NEVER felt compelled to hurt a person in my entire life until i met you. LOOK what you turned me into. I hope you end up exactly where you want to, in the gutter. 3.i’m glad i’ll never be like you, never base my life around lust and impurity. I’ve never met someone in my entire life that has been so slut bound, and proud. What are you trying to hide behind that mask? 4.i’m really happy you proved to me that you weren’t worth it. yeah, i love you more than anyone will ever know. But you just aren’t good for me, you weren’t ready for the commitment either. You gave me a reason to explore my other opportunities. Thank you for letting me be genuinely happy. 5.You two are considered family to me, and it honestly hurts that i’m not accepted because of a decision that actually makes me, and the other person, happy. I felt so at home when I would wake up knowing I would be spending time with my favorite people, why does it always have to be your way? 6.i used to be utterly in love with you. You live so far away, and we might never meet. We have known each other for so long, i hope my last statement isn’t true. If i could pick one person to spend just one day with, it’d be you. For a while i would say “you know everything about me, because you are my everything.” You’ve always been a great friend to me, and i think we should just get married. that’s all. 7.I miss when you and I were unstoppable. You were my other half, my other brain. Our thoughts and movements were so in sync. I feel like you and i could be that way again, but i shouldn’t have let anything or any body come in between us. You would call me momma, i kept you out of trouble. I let it go to be selfish and i’m sorry. I know that you don’t hold it against me. But i just need to see you and hug you and know that we can get back to being the best best friends there were. I always felt that if you were older than I was, i would have snatched you up and we would have grown old together just because our mind connection is incredible. I’ll never have another friend like you, let’s get back to where we started.? 8.you are like my brother, and that gives this away. I’m sorry for our hard times. I’m sorry for ever getting angry. I’m so happy we look past all the bad and focus on all our goods. I wish you didn’t have to put up with my crazy ex boyfriend. I wish that everything in our lives could just be awesome. One day you and I will rule the world.